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Fear and trembling, leads to doubt and procrastination, which in turn
leads to regret. I really don't want to go down that route, and i think
regret among the worst of all emotions. If i could eradicate that
totally, I would do anything to achieve it. And now I find myself
somewhere between the first and second stage, which would invariably
lead me to that which i fear most. Has anyone of you read 'The
Alchemist' by Paulo Coelho?If so, then you would know exactly what I'm
talking about.
Among my greatest dreams in life is to have a career that I love, and
all my life I've wanted to be a journalist or writer. Its only at this
late stage that I'm beginning to go pursue it, but simply because
writing is so important to me, that I'm afraid of failing to even get
it, of being told I'm not good enough, or even worse, discovering I
don't even want it as a career and eventually what I love would become
something that I begin to dread. So sometimes I think, maybe I should
keep it as a leisure pursuit.
So, I've been pursuing some contacts for feature writing, nothing
serious. But everytime I look at that SPH application form and cover
letter I've printed out and put in my in-tray, I can taste that feeling
of doubt coming over me, of wanting to take that giant step but not
being able to accept rejection. And so, that application remains in the
in-tray of my life, but would I ever have the courage to take that leap
of faith. Couple that with developments at work and I can safely say
i'm in a stage of limbo.
sigh...
-acaseofyou
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